Sometimes, it's best just to move forward. No matter what it takes to do so. It might be hard to do, but you might not want to risk life catching up to you. I'm taking a moment right now to let it close the gap, make this race between life and I a little more exciting. That's something I haven't done since I started running. With good reason. It's only now that I feel like I can handle the prospect of assessing what exactly is going on in my life. The picture kind of looks something like this...

    The color scheme is mainly comprised of warm tones, reflecting the fact that I am mostly content with life at the moment. When you take a closer look, you can see the spots of colder colors, dark blues, grays, and even some blacks. I'll never be perfectly happy with my life, but unlike a year ago, that's something I've come to accept. It's only when I let life catch up with me do I see what makes those spots darker than the rest. A few of those things will never change because of who I am and the way I think. Others, are definitely able to be changed, but I don't know if those changes will cause the dark blue to fade to black. There's one in particular that I've been refusing to address, and I probably will continue to do so. Let's just say that I'm in a situation that I feel alright about, but I should feel much better than alright. And by continuing to immerse myself in it, I'm lying to myself and others and making it a deeper hole with every second passing. It's comforting and fun, but those are the wrong reasons for continuing with this hole digging. I feel that I will probably never make up my mind as to what action I will take. Enough of that.

    I'm letting life catch up, and those dark spots seem less and less important when the rest hits me. Sure they have to be taken care of, but I'm busy enjoying the ride to realizing my dreams. I never thought it would be this much work to make this happen but I also never knew that I would be this close. I knew it wasn't an overnight occurrence. But after a year's work, it's apparent that I will be continuing this battle, and I'll be fighting harder than ever. No rest for the wicked you say? Well I don't want to rest.

    We've got a huge break coming up that could break us out of the Hudson Valley and land us a record deal. Talionis will be performing on the 17th of January at the Chance Theater in Poughkeepsie. This isn't an ordinary show however, it's the first round of the Break Contest. Winner of the contest gets a huge prize package with all the works (merch, photos, studio time, etc.) and more importantly a slot on this year's Bamboozle fest. Defeat isn't even a concern in our minds. Sure the competition will be pretty close, but we've got this won already. Our set list includes 3 brand new songs, never heard in their entirety by anyone not in Talionis, and an old classic. The new 3 are definitely a dose of melodic metalcore that I'm proud to be playing. To say the least!

     Now the only reason I can say that we've got this contest in the bag, is not because I'm a cocky asshole who believes that our music is better than that of any other band in the area. There's a lot of talent in the area, and it will be serious competition, but a huge chunk of my confidence comes from the fact that we've got the greatest fans. People that have stuck by us since the beginning and will help us through this battle. We seriously owe so much to you guys. And we need you to pull through for us again. Tickets for this show are $12 and we need you and everyone you know there! Contact me via text (845)625-3288 or facebook message if you need tickets or if you want to know how you can help us out!

Keep an eye out for Talionis, 'cause we're on fucking fire!

Sometimes, cutting things out from your life can be easy. In particular those things that have already left you. I'm waiting for a call, but I'm not expecting one.

The dreams in which I'm dying, are the best I've ever had..."


I find it ironic that I get most of my artistic motivation out of a desperation to get some kind of demon off of my chest. When I am miserable, I produce my best work. I'm kind of working on getting it so I can write when I'm not feeling like garbage. Stay tuned for some kind of art work.

So basically, you might have to wait a while from the shots I took at Lake George, although none of them are too great.

In other news, today? and saturday are my last two days at stewarts

In other other news, I work at hot topic now.

In other other other news, I need to get a job at school because hot topic isn't really going to get me very far financially.

So basically all I've been doing artistically as of late is fooling around with a demo version of photoshop cs2, any body got a serial for it? I haven't really been doing anything with it just making backgrounds and stuff, I'll eventually post those as scraps. Also working out the font I want for my "Beyond and to all time I stand" back tattoo. Also thinking of adding a little thing from the H.P. Lovecraft short story "the Call of Cthulhu". It reads "Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn"  which is a chant that means "In his house at R'lyeh, dead Cthulhu waits dreaming." I'm thinking maybe the back of my arms for that one. But maybe not, I don't to cover my body in just text.

    Haven't really been playing with my camera too much, but theres the whole summer ahead and I'm sure I'll make good use of it when I go to Lake George in July.